Category: Everything

  • Phases: Intro

    Phases: Intro

    Every song is a breadcrumb on the tangled path back to who I’ve been. In this series, I let shuffle decide which… Read more →

    Every song is a breadcrumb on the tangled path back to who I’ve been. In this series, I let shuffle decide which memories resurface, giving each musical phase its turn in the spotlight—and seeing what stories wake up with the sound.

    I lack the ability to actively recall memories, for the most part. I have no clue why, and I’ve never really had the kind of consistent insurance coverage that would’ve let me explore that area—or any of the similar weirdness, like how I just drop into a black void when I fall asleep and wake up with zero recollection of dreams, if there were any at all.

    Context drags memories out of me whether I want it to or not, though. And nothing has a more powerful ability to do this than music.

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  • Sunday Feelings Dump

    Sunday Feelings Dump

    I’m getting over COVID. It’s been quite the fucking journey, I’ll tell you what. And the timing? Truly could not have been… Read more →

    I’m getting over COVID.

    It’s been quite the fucking journey, I’ll tell you what.

    And the timing? Truly could not have been worse—and I still have a nagging sore throat that just won’t quit combined with absolutely no energy. I keep having to spend money I don’t have thanks to being forced into taking out a predatory loan a few weeks ago when my alternator failed in my car.

    My stress level has been high and my bank account is constantly overdrawn. I don’t really see a way out for at least the next six months–I’ll just have to keep juggling cash advances and overdraft fees. Even my pending raise at work was delayed once again. Yay.

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    BB27 As Indie Horror Game

    BB27 As Indie Horror Game

    I would never sleep again. Read more →

    I would never sleep again.

  • COVID, day 7

    I’m really struggling with COVID. My symptoms started last Tuesday after I went to an Of Montreal show that weekend. My main… Read more →

    I’m really struggling with COVID. My symptoms started last Tuesday after I went to an Of Montreal show that weekend.

    My main complaint is definitely the exhaustion now that I’m physically feeling better. That and the brain fog that just won’t seem to lift.

  • may in pictures

    may in pictures

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  • Long Reads: My Lost Decade

    Long Reads: My Lost Decade

    This begins my personal blog where I’ll put things I’d like to remember. I have a pretty shitty memory as it is,… Read more →

    This begins my personal blog where I’ll put things I’d like to remember. I have a pretty shitty memory as it is, so as I piece everything together I hope to be able to hold on to it for a long time to come instead of being scared it will just disappear one day.

    By the title you can probably gather that I feel I’m coming out of a lost decade. This post will be both about that decade and also a bit of a general introduction to me as a person. It’s my one year anniversary where I work and that means that after July I’ll officially be in my longest position I’ve ever held. My boss speaks highly of me. I’ve accidentally made myself an important part of the team. Things are going well there.

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